As I fall deeper into a manic state
I'm a prime canidate for the gene to recieve the drug addict trait
Blood pressure climbs at a dramatic rate
I seem to gravitate to the bottle of Nyquil then I salivate
Start off with the Nyquil like I think I'll just have a taste
Couple sips of that then I gradually graduate
To a harder prescription drug called valium like yeah, that's great
I go to take just one and I end up like havin eight
Now I need something in my stomach cause I haven't ate
Maybe I'll grab a plate of nachos and I'll have a steak
And you'd think with all I have at stake
Look at my daughters face..
"Mommy something is wrong with dad I think
He's acting weird again, he's really beginning to scare me
Wont shave his beard again and he pretends he doesn't hear me
And all he does is eat doritos and cheetos
And he just fell asleep in his car eating three musketeers in the rear seat

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Sometimes I feel so alone,
I just dont know, feels like I been down this road before,
So lonely and cold, it's like something takes over me
As soon as I go home and close the door
Kinda it feels like deja vu, I wanna get away from this place, I do
But I cant and I wont,
Say I try but I know that's a lie cause I dont
And why I just dont know


Maybe just a nice cold brew, what's a beer?
That's the devil in my ear, I been sober a fuckin year
And that fucker still talks to me, he's all I can fuckin hear
"Marshall come on, we'll watch the game, it's the cowboys and buccaneers"
And maybe if I just drink half I'll be halfed buzzed for half of the time
Who's that mastermind behind that little line?
With that kind of rational, man, I got half a mind
To have another half of glass of wine, sounds assinine, yeah I know
But I never had no problem with alcohol
Ouch, look out for the wall, aim for the couch, I'm bout to fall
I missed the couch and down I go lookin like a bouncy ball
Shit must have knocked me out cause I ain't feel the ground at all
Wow, what the fuck happened last night, where am I?
Man, fuck am I hungover, and goddamn I got a headache
Shit, half a vicodin, why cant I?
"All systems ready for take off please stand by"

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So I take a vicodin, splash, it hits my stomach and "Ahh"
A couple weeks go by it ain't even like I'm gettin high
Now I need it just not to feel sick, yah I'm gettin by
Wouldn't even be taking this shit if DeShaun didn't die
Oh yeah, there's an excuse, you lose Proof so you use
There's new rules, it's cool if it's helpin you to get through
It's twelve noon, ain't no harm in self-inducin a snooze
What else is new, fuck it, what would Elvis do in your shoes?
Now here I am 3 months later, full blown relapse
"Just get high until the kids get home from school holmes, relax"
And since I'm convinced that I'm an insomniac
I need these pills to be able to sleep so I take 3 naps
Just to be able to function throughout the day, let's see
That's an ambian each nap, how many valium, 3?
And that will average out to about one good hour's sleep
Ok so now you see the reason how come he
Has taken 4 years to just put out an album b
See me and you we almost had the same outcome Heath
Cause that Christmas, you know the pneumonia thing?
It was bologna, was it the methadone ya think?
Or the hydrocodone you hide inside your pornos
Your VCR tape cases, with your ambian see are great places to hide em, ain't it?
So you can lie to Hailie, "I'm goin beddy bye Whitney baby, goodnight Elaina
Go in the room and shut the bedroom door
And wake up in an ambulance, they said they found me on the bathroom floor

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