These tears are only empty vessels
Raining down upon this
Ill hopless bloodstained terrain
I once hoped to strive here
I never thought I'd die here
Pain gives them strength
They laugh and watch my breakdown
Weep as I may screaming in fright
Nobody cares
A plea for help falls on deaf ears
Flawed ritual eager to flee
Screaming to the masses
In hope that they would hear
They pretеnded to care decеivers
They all nodded with concern
Fake reassuring gestures
As if that changed anything
Documented and filed away
Strategies and detailed plans
Focus group shams
Another bell another searing message
Another threat another sinister taunt
I try to ignore the pain
I try to numb it with a blade
My once delicate skin is a caricature
Of the child I used to be so sweet, so innocent
A few more slices the red makes their words subside
Digging deeper in my forearm used to make me feel so fine
But lately this feels so boring
Fresh canvas is what I need
To paint and maim a new idea
Another bell another searing message
Another threat another sinister taunt
I try to ignore the pain
I try to numb it with a blade
So rejuvenated let's make someone else weep
They have consumed me whole essence is fuelled by hate
I strive to endure, but that end seems too late
Far too late
Shattered blind and weeping
Broken empty human
I finally decide to rest
Their spiteful words and voices
Continuously constant echoing
Never ending cycle repeating within me
I cry out for guidance
To sullen overpacked ears
There is no one that can help me
There is no one that cares
I found my father's gun
I brought it to school
I shook as I fired it
I screamed as they did too
I hoped this would end it
But it just made things worst