Of Matter – Proxy

I'm a surrogate
I'm archetypal and itinerant
I'm your excuse to long
For a superior
I will undertake
I will overcome

Imperfection you will find
Look close enough
Tear off the mask I need
This endeavor is not mine
You subject me to the daggers you conceive
I'm stronger than I was before
Thus you reinforce these walls
I can't fight you anymore
Threatened by the open door
All the chances I ignore
I can't stand still anymore

The day is done
Nothing left to say
Resting head in hands
Wishing I had known my place
To take a stand
The errand of a fool
I'm not to reprimand
I'm here to help you through

Is nothing like it seems?
Living in this sequence, a dream
Is nothing like it seems?
Gather broken shards of self esteem


Of Matter – Retrospect

Burning bridges as I cower beneath
Trying to salvage the debris
My devotion tied around your waist lest you fall
no one seems to sense the strain
No one seems to know

I don't begin to proclaim that I know
I can't continue down this road

Dwelling on what has come to pass
no force alive will bring it back
I would know
I can feel the pressure getting steeper with every life lost
You hope that I won't see the light of day in time to come
With no conviction founded
Just judgement contorted based on lust
Give me strength
Your assumption brings to a conclusion of no consequence
and I refuse to play into your hands for your appeal

Inadequate, Inadequate
I know
I know
I know
I know
I've hoped
I've hoped
you'll see me


Of Matter – Resist

Turn back time
Reason why
Break neck speed
History

Waiting (waiting)
Waning (waning)
Exasperating
Unstrung
Tethered
Hoping forever

No! I tried to settle bets with my own soul
Bless my lips for the first time before you don't
Gripping to the last touch of your hand I grow to loathe
Hope that you remember just how far I'll go
I'll spend the rest of my life wishing I'm enough

Resist.
Resist.
Resist.

Resist.
Resist.
Resist.