Set this shit off

I need some medicine and I need it quick
Asymptomatic doesn't mean that I'm not sick
Every single day I feel like I'm a ghost
And if I hear another human I may choke

I can't keep meditating
I'm hyperventilating

And I keep on opening my wounds to watch them bleed
If I'm my own god, I guess this is heresy

I can't keep meditating
I'm hyperventilating
It's so exhausting
Being this fucking invalidated

I've come undone
'Cause no one
Can help me and I feel like I'm the only one
And I've become so fucking numb
So tell me why I keep ripping off my stitches

I need some medicine and I need it quick
Don't mind the dosage just pump me with one more fix (I need it quick)

'Cause I ain't meditating
I'm hyperventilating
It's so exhausting
Being this fucking invalidated

I've come undone
'Cause no one
Can help me and I feel like I'm the only one
And I've become so fucking numb
So tell me why I keep ripping off my stitches

I'm bleeding underneath my stitches...

I've become so fucking numb
And I'm not the only one...

I've come undone
'Cause no one
Can help me and I feel like I'm the only one
And I've become so fucking numb
So tell me why I keep ripping off my stitches