"The Man That Never Was"

I wanna scream at the top of my lungs
Pissed off at myself for what I’ve done
I’ve been down this path
I’ve felt the wrath of the sins from my past
It burns so deep
What I’ve done to you I’ll never escape
It burns so deep
You’re everything I’ll never be

I need to open my eyes to see again to see the way I was back then
Gotta find my way, gotta find a way back again
Tear open my chest to dig around and tell me why I’m such a mess
I got a fear that my heart got up and left

Oh I’m somewhere drifting hanging out with regret
We're laughing making jokes of past things I did
I call apathy my one and only friend
Keep a distance I could be contagious

I’m a little twisted and in dire need of assistance
I won’t quit these habits if I know I can't have it
Because, because I’m sick, I’m a dick
I’m quick with my words
Draw on me you'll get hurt
I’m scum, I’m numb
There's nothing you can do to me that I haven't done

I need to open my eyes to see again to see the way I was back then
Gotta find my way, gotta find a way back again
Tear open my chest to dig around and tell me why I’m such a mess
I got a fear that my heart got up and left

I am a shadow the hollowed out shell of a man that was
You're my mistake
You're my mistake
I’m the villain
Of this metropolis
I’ll sink this ship
I’ll burn this bridge
I’ll end what little life we're in

I need to open my eyes to see again to see the way I was back then
Gotta find my way, gotta find a way back again
Tear open my chest to dig around and tell me why I’m such a mess
I got a fear that my heart got up and left

Does it make sense to feel so spent?
Get this off my chest
Has the best of me came and went
Is this feeling passing? I keep asking
Is this temporary? Please be temporary

They say it gets better with time
Well it's been time enough and I want to live my life
I let you down now you've got me on hold
I just want to go home